I will never see you again.
I had never been able to put that deep rooted fear into words, until recently… But now that I did, I’ve begun to heal.
I now know you knew I was there with you. My sister told me of how your paw reached for me, the voice inside the phone, every time I spoke.
I do not want to say you are gone, because in my heart I know that is not true. You are not gone — I have memories of you, I see you everywhere, I still feel so strongly for you, and I sense your spirit with me. I know you came to visit me that day beneath the sun, I just know it.
I believe energy doesn’t disappear, it transforms. I think your energy now accompanies me wherever I go.
I cherish every moment I had with you. I know I can’t even write them all, so I won’t, but you know them all. Every single one.
Chai, I will not see you again… but I know you are not gone. You are with me, you are a part of me. And as long as I live, your legacy will too.
